thinking of the song "话题", dont know why..

women are hard to understand.. we sometimes expect people to know what we are truly feeling, when often what we say is not what we mean. i often say it's ok, when it isnt.. when i feel down, i try to pretend to be cheerful, pretend nothing affects me.. pretend to be strong and independent. i hurt you, cause i may just want to get back at you for hurting me.. you did it unknowingly, i did it knowingly. can you forgive me?

school starts again! my life goes back to monotony, and my mood goes back to being not so happy. hate the train, the assault of smells just make my nose itch, and i sneeze like crazy! haha=)

gen darling!
look at e look on gen's face!! haha hilarious!=p
mocha villa of TCC!!

many other pics i din post.. haha lazy..

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate it...
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;
Not even at all.

falling in love all over again is not really as hard as it seems.. just gotta find ways to keep the passion alive.. and remind yourself even when you're having a lovers' quarrel that you still love each other.. =)

ps. dunno why i posted tt chunk up there. haha but do u noe where it comes from? =p

blogger's block. blog more when i can, most probably later.

finally met evan yesterday, and we watch some skinny women parade in bikinis at PS glamour fest 06. haha i am not affected by them, after all my goal in life is not to be 49kg.

realised i dont ask anybody to change for me, and i hope they wont ask the same of me. acceptance maybe? haha or maybe just plain lazy. if i wanna change, then i will. for myself, not for anyone else.

kaoz. my old pics are ghastly.

even though a woman knows her bf loves her, she still hopes that he shows it.. a simple sms showing he cares can melt her heart.. and sometimes one of the more annoying things about us women is that we like to suspect things, and then try to test our men, just to assure ourselves that we are being loved.. but there may one point where the tests just annoy everyone..

perhaps the little things tell us better just how much we are loved.. treasure the moments when your hands are being held, every kiss, every hug..

dont lose the passion..

[inspired by 3 girlfriends.. haha]

You Are a White Rose

You represent youthfulness and purity. Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time

What Color Rose Are You?

Men See You As: An Attainable Challenge

You know how to make your man crave more of youBut you also know when to show some interest backYou're good at keeping your guy guessingAnd over time, you'll let him know how you really feel

Are You a Challenge?

let's see.. fri i have to go back to sch, for either biz fin or eff com. hmm or both. which means i could be in a bit of a fix. thurs is tentatively my evan day.. mon is over, n i havent done anything. left tues and wed.. hmmm org chem test not studied for yet. i hate short holidays.

at the age of 40, i wont be able to do some things i do now, or rather, i will choose not to.. stay up late to chat online, clutch my hp in wait for a sms..

not too long ago, i was one of those who sat on the mrt floor, now i find it a disgrace, and wonder how come i did that before..

youth is something that allows us to do crazy things..

hols are finally here! but gd things dun last, one week is gonna be over in a blink.

i think alot in the shower, but the moment i step out, i forget. and those thoughts are really intriguing stuff i could blog about. haha but cos of my stm, my blog is empty. except for a few lines.

want a change in my life. a big one perhaps. but i lack the motivation and energy, not to mention courage, to start the change. haha but i guess, if i really change, i will fear losing myself. e down-to-earth, non-judgemental me.

chemistry is important, 感情并非感动。

next time i have a house of my own, must have a nice couch beside my ceiling-to-floor window so that i can sit there and daydream!

there are some things i dont wanna acknowledge, yet they creep to the front of my mind when i least expect them to.. perhaps i havent given enough time, perhaps i havent buried them deep enough.. perhaps i should just face them.

love is so hard to maintain, cos it involves time.. and people change with time..

i confirm fail maths. alas my lost sleep.

did u listen to 933 music diary just now? some of the words struck a chord within me..

there's no time! somemore a subject i have never excelled at!! grrrr... why does the two days to holidays seem so distant?

happy on hearing weeinn's news! haha =)

very in the mood to blog today.. haha to comment on vday.. but i got tests to study. yet i am always in a dreaming mood in the week of tests, somemore next week is break! haha

lots of people carrying bouquets today, are you one of them? haha i think flowers are only meant to be good for haolian..doesnt necessarily mean the guy loves the girl alot.

in sec sch, we know today as friendship day, but now it seems stupid to call it friendship day. dont know why. just me i guess.

happy valentine's day! =) hope you had a nice day even if you're single!

nervous for a friend who's in deep shit, as she says... hope she can get out of the mess, with minimum casualty.. opening bank account tmr!!=) wed meeting gen.. thurs and fri got maths and material science test respectively.. up to my neck in work, and lagging far behind. one week enough to catch up?

vday's round the corner, not celebrating it this year.. remembered the first time i celebrated vday, in any way at all.. that was back in ahs, when vday was called friendship day.. song dedications, little gifts of sweets and hershey's kisses.. those simple days when we said to our friends how grateful we are to know them..

vday for people our age is now a day to spend with our darling boyfriend or girlfriend, or the one we like.. just want to wish all my friends a happy valentine's day, and i wish for them to all find the one they love =)

p.s i miss shell!! and all those nights we spent talking in the dark! when will i c u? =p

kinda tired to blog regularly.. and there's always the problem that i blog only short entries.. haha.. school is tiring me out.. this sem just seems harder than last sem. i wanna go hongkong this hols, with gen! haha but i wanna catch world cup finals too!!

think school is a killer.. cause the one week break is just insufficient to rest and study.. but then again, for a year, we only study two sems, 26 weeks in total... kinda makes me wonder.. how come i'm more tired now than jc? haha

i've come to realise that little gestures really do mean alot. even if it sounds cliche. but when a friend does something unexpected, or something really sweet, the good feeling stays for a long time..i love all those around me! and i hope all of them are happy..=)

the five minutes you spent in my room, trying to see if i was fine, without asking outright, i appreciate it. thanks bro! i really havent been a good sister, snapping at you, when in all the world, you're the only brother i ever want! and for that matter, they're the only parents i want.

there really is a calm before the storm, and then the storm is suddenly upon me, in the form of the talk. all she wanted from me was simple, for me not to hurt others, and possibly not to get hurt, and to study hard. and all i ever did was make her and him worry, when i kept thinking of myself as a smart ass who could take care of herself.

generation gap really exists, some of her views make me want to snort at the sheer absurdity of it. she said the words i believe other people are thinking, just that she gave it straight to my face, others didnt, and in some way i thank her.

though it hurts.

-=i keep wanting to turn over a new leaf, treat my family better, and i keep spoiling my leaves..=-

the same waves of emotions sweep past me every week, tiring fight. hide my head in my pillow sleep till death. haha the end of these 4 years will be welcome..

never really knew what it feels like to struggle.. till now.

lotsa stuff to say, but no time to blog.. not really keen on publishing for the whole world to read either..

supposed to go bainian at llb's house today, but she's not free... so we'll just have to go next year.. met gen last night, happy birthday girl!!! hope in the year ahead, you'll be blessed with lots of happiness.. =)

counting down for people like evan, 9 more days to vday!! haha the feeling of not having to fret is really, rather nice.. haha =p

feeling useless, i was once scared i will be mediocre, now i fear being nobody. haha what a laugh. but closer to despair is more like it. cant do anything right. yet i got no right to give up.

my room light went dead on me. blea. falling behind on every subject. why did i act smart take biz fin? haha at least chinese wont fail.

i am not perfect, but if you love me, love me for all my imperfections.